Where were you when I was...

I cant WAIT man Ozzfest is on tuesday next week Aug. 1st and Warped tour is Wenesday aug 2nd, I cant wait. I've looking forward to this since last years and its going to be Bomb. Im going up with Ryan and michelle on both Tours and Nikki at The Warped. ITs going to be so Fucking awsome i cant Wait. I love going to concert i like the whole vibe of a concert, Even if the music Blows You will always find a way to have fun. You dance, Crowdsurf and Mosh (which is my personal favorite) Ive only been to 7 Big Tour/concerts and this years warped and Ozzfest is going to be my 8th and 9th. and its funny cause last years Ozzfest and warped was my 1st and 2nd. lol. Theres only been one concert that ive been to the really just sucked Ass and i didnt even want to go tobegin with it was The 311 tour with Papa Roach, That tour just plain out sucked Fucking donkey Dick. Every concert i went I spent and average of $40-$50 a ticket except for the two summer concert series. I love Concerts I love everything about them.
Last year was my first real concert and after that i went to 5 more in the same year heres the order. Ozzfest 05 (July 15th)-Warped Tour 05 (Aug 15th)- 311 w/ Pap roach (Aug 19th)- System of a down w/ Marz volta(Aug 27th)- Summer Concert Series 05, My chemical Romance/Alkaline trio (Sep 13th)- Nintendo Fusion Tour 05, F.O.B./P!ATD (November 22nd)
Summer Consert Series 06, Dropkick Murphies/MadBall (July 13)

and thats it untill next week I love this shit. Peace

I total'd two cars in less then a year. but no of it was my fault and old lady hit my first car snezzing and then a drunk hit my car going through a red light.This is bull shit. but dont worry im getting a 1991 cougar hopefully next week. Hopefully i have better luck with this car. Now i goot go and read some fucking book by my favorite author when i was like n 6th grade, The GREAT EXPECTAIONS by: CHARLES DICKINSON. this is goona be fun its a 600 page book. but i only gotta read up to 150 before Monday. so i goota go. Peace

ps: ohh yeah im working at Sams Bakery Now. And its fucking Krazy buts its a nice job.

pss: I love NIKKI( i cant wait to see her today at 6:30) i love her ;)

Finally i got another car. its a Black 96 berata. Its Ok i guess. I fucking hated it when i first saw it. BUt now its ok. I got it yesterday. i still wished i had my Saturn, even though that shit sucked to. But hey what can you do with no money. IM still looking for a job (I've been looking since january) I need one bad! I just found out that i got a 90 in current events, a 92 in applied physics, and im almost postive my algebra, and english are going to be in the early 90's or late 80's. gym i always pass.im guessing Law at leats in the mid 80's , and this sucks cause for related I got a 78. yeah its low but to be honest I was thinking i was getting lower then that. And in shop im passing but i dont know at all by how much. I did get fired from my co-op job and i hope to god it dont shoot down my grade. Im right back on track with all my grades(except plumbing) just like i was from 8th grade to now. Las term suck i didnt get anything. no priciples list,no honors, no high honors, this is a first since ive been at diman. I was pissed but now im all good agian.Im going to go pick up nikki for the first time in my new car and i cant wait to drive with her in it. I love her so much. I hope she had a good day. I havent seen her almost all day, and I havent had her kiss all day and i need it bad. Lol . ok well im going. peace.

I didnt have a perfect car. everyone admitts that. but it got me around and now because of an old lady haveing a sneeze attack at 5:30 in the fucking mourning on tuesday, heading to work. I am left with NOTHING. My car is total. i have no way to do anything and wont get a check for two weeks the min. ALL im getting for this abig fucking head ache is only $1,270 thats it. I cant buy shit with that. Im So fucking pissed cause how am i supposed to find anything half way decent with that. Thats Fucking BULL SHIT. I Didnt do anything wrong. Never in a accident. Never got a ticket besides parking( which wasnt my fault). All i did was park outside my hous leaglly and now i have nothing. How am i suppossed to get to school I refuse to take a bus. and none of my friends will do it. And how about getting home. Walking, Looks like more than just a possibility. And Nikki, this is our vacation and the average amount of time i see her a day is only about 2 - 3 hours. Thats nothing compaired to the normal weekdays were i would go to her house at 9:30am and stay with her to 11:45 pm.i love her so much. She's the only one Im really thinking about through all this. I just want to spend as much time with her as I can. I love her so much. I m just pissed Thats all. I DONT FUCKING DESERVE THIS!!!.WELL i got to go. Peace

We Did shit again, in shop. there's nothing to do for us seniors in there theres baerly enough to do for the juniors. I hate my shop I always had. I never liked fucking plumbing. NEVER!!! I only pick that shop because the rest sucked worst. And the people in there were just cool and funny. But now in the long run i fucked myself over cause all the funny people are gone and i'm left with a trade i learnt shit in for 4 years. This is bullshit 4 years down the drain of schooling cause the teachers dont teach You shit. You wanna know what we did today we went to a lumber yard and got wood on the bus. then brought iot back found out it was the wrong kind and stood on the buss untill 11:15. I mean what kind of teaching is that. Yeah its easy BUt we dont learn shit. Also the rest of the day we went in these little 3'x6' booths and sat down all day. THATS IT! come ON its A Waste of Time, I want to go to college and beacuse my mom didn't want me to go to fucking durfee I wasted fucking 4 years of my life that i have to make up In BCC. But I dont even care anymore as long as i pass and have a high enough GPA im fine. I also got to start studying 4 my SAT the shits in April. Damn I need Luck. I just sick of getting nothing out of 4 years of school i mean seriously i dont know one thing that shop taught me. Its not just me either,everyone one in the shop say's it to. This is just Bull Shit.

There is no words to describe what I feel and encounter everyday. Love,Hatred,Betrayel,Deception,... the list dont stop.No Matter what I do, Theres nothing I can do to change the words Spoken. And replying with words is no better then the origanal speaker. But dont worry I live on and my leagcy will follow me where ever i go. My foot Print is not just a mear marking of dust on the wet pavent but an indent in the crust of the earth the could never be removed. Im hear to make a difference that so many before me have tried. But im different, and thats Why I will make it. Im not egotistical or self centered just Confident. My abilitys are limited but my heart is endless, theres nothing i cant do.

I WILL MAKE IT!

Death most people fear it, some ... wish it upon there boreing livez. but This is serious as we grow old we lose touch with many of are friends and only keep the few thats been there for you. this is good to a point cause u know those friendz will never betray you or back stabb you. but theres also a bad side when we grow old. we see more and more friends we knew and people we hung with just pass away. so as you read this please this is not no chain letter this is straight from the heart. always keep your best friends close. but never push away the new friends you make, cause one day your goona come to realize the 3 friends you've been with your whole life are gone and you will die alone. SO Please as you grow make an apoint to never let go of a good friend, no matter if you just met them or you knew them since u where in kindergarten. just keep in touch.

There are a whole list of people out there that dont like me, and thats fine.But I never gave anyone a reason not to.... ANd thats whats Fucked. I could be the funniest,sexxiest,sweetest person you will ever meet, If you gave me a Chance, and You know this cause those are the only wordz that ever exit my mouth. Or I could be the person you dream about killing everyday of your life Becuase your not open Minded.U dont see through My eyes, U dont see Wat i see,... so u have no right to Say The shit you Say. But itz ok One day every one will SEE.... The real BIG SEXXY

The past couple of days have been borieng. nothing that exciteing, but being with nikki makes everything better. we watched the new A. Horror and if you know me, one of my favorite movies of all time is the orignal, and this did just under justice. But it was good. and i also watched 40 year old virgin, i fucking love that movie. I got out of school and was talking to nikki and she said that michelle said "how could u like mark without likeing ryan first" And I mean I have low self esteem already and to even say to my girlfriend , im second best " It got me a lil upset" to say the least. But i had to see what she really ment, Nikki couldnt really explain it that well and i didnt want to think of it all day, and be upset. So i sent her a text asking her what she ment and she called just saying that all she was trying to say was that were so alike, u have to like both of us. which is so true. We both have the same style, we both act alike, think alike, talk alike, and we both look alike just opposite in wieght. lol. so yeah i could see what she was trying to say, but Nikki dosent think we are at all.Alright but imma go i want to wake up in the mourning and pick up nikki before she goes to work. I love her.

I LOVE NIKKI!

Today was a Fun Filled day of in your face truth! by this 60 year old man by the name of Mark Mi???? (something).He gave the entire senior class a good bitch smack of Truth, And i loved it! He was so in your face saying its not the color of ur skin thats bull shit its how you act! and Sorry to say its fucking True! I hope when im 60 i can be a speaker and talk to little 17 year old kids and smackthem in the face so hard with truth they'll be Screaming for the exit! im the man! when a person asks you who? in any question its me! im the only man any one is ever concerned about. lol. jp. And then my Car is falling apart even worst the front almost got torn off today. so im going to my uncles tommorow 2 see if he'll fix it.and also whether or not i should be a Game Cube so me and NIKKI and all my friends could play!Its was nothing but a fun filled day! i had a great day with NIKKI. Where not like most couples we dont sit there and are mad 4 hours and days at eachother if something is bothering us we talk about it then, and settle it there. i Love her so Much. and all the talk about my future either tommorow next week, or in 60 years made me realize That much more that i really want to be with her through it All.

I LOVE YOU NIKKI!

Sitting here alone is the hardest part of the day! Thinking of what her thought might be , and haveing no way to speak or hear her voice. Shes alone surrouned by people when im alone with nothing, but the thoughts of her still fresh in my mind.But in the same light we are one, still Laughing and holding eachother just waiting to see the other ones smiling face, when they say I LOVE YOU!

Just got in and i took my dog out. But anyways i just watched the exsocism of emily rose and i got to admit. It wasnt that good at all. lol. But hey i didnt complain i mean watching a movie with the love of my life just enjoying every sec. being with her. there's nothing to complain about. She gots work tommorow at 3:30 to 7:30 so maybe ill hang out with ryan then. i have no idea. well i got to go so Bye. Ill write later!

Whats up , Im soo Bored right now i dropped off NIKKI at 2:00 pm and im waiting to go get her at 7:30 from stop and shop. We are suppose to watch the exocism of Emily Rose. i heard it sucked but she really wants to watch it and all I want to do is make her happy.I love her so much. damn i cant wait to see her. Maybe i'll call Ryan and see if he wants to chill untill i go and pick her up. or maybe andrew but he never chills with me anymore, but i dont care. Hes always with laura. Well i'll Write later ok peace.

2005 - well let me catch everyone up on what had happen in 2005. NIKKI.
Thats what happened. Shes everything to me. I love her so much and is the person I WILL spend the rest of my life with. WE started dateing in Oct, 9, 2005 and where still going strong. I mean all this time ive been saying im worthless and no one will ever want me, and then Nikki appears. I mean 2005 was the best year in my entire life. I went to 6 concerts including Ozzfest, Warped tour 05,311/papa roach,system of a down,My Chemical Romance,and the Nitendo Fusion Tour. and Then i met Nikki. and im now a Senior at high school and trying to find a way to get to college from Diman.My friend Ryan (Maji Maji) is in a new relatetionship w/ Michelle and there going about 6 months strong and me and Nikki are working on our 4th. Also i moved from somerset back to the city of Scholars, aka the rectum of Massachusets Fall River. Thats right im back! lol. But dont think my life is all peachez and creme i mean my mom and dad are still always fighthing. and i dont mean yelling i mean my mom stabbing my dad and giving him black and blue eyes. and he cant do shit cause he'll be fucked hes a 2nd degree black belt in kenpo and will kill her. so he just has to sit there and take it. then Me getting fired from my job and haveing no money for my car or cell and the list goes on. but yeah its getting late i'll write later Peace.

PS: NIKKI, I LOVE YOU

Im going to warped tour today, fucking finally its here yes, im trying to get home so i have enough time to sleep so i can get to work tha next day, but i just cant wait. ohh yeah we got a new installment to kryptik rek. his name is Ace aka Aaron. he kool as fuck and mad gangsta, check up on myspace for dead body krew, and listen to me and patchez shit, k, Peace.

What up yall this is your neighborhood warlock BACK for the new year. 05' is goona be the shit this year. I should have gooten my licence like 6 months ago but I have had no time for road lessons(FUCK THAT) but Im goona be taking them soon so stay of the sidewalks as much as possible and it would be a better bet to walk in the streets(HAHA). I dont know why but I feel so just hyper and fucking stupid at the same time. My hairs fucking purple now with just a green strip in front and the shaved hair undernieth is supposed to be green. But im almost 99.99% sure this will be my last time dyeing my hair except for it being a regular color(black,brown,blonde and ant mixture of both). IM a junior i cant fucking belive it. fuck whered all the years go im mean i still remeber being in 2nd grade and not supposed to be likeing girls but i did and my friends made fun of me. i mean i rember being so skinny untill hitting 5th grade
(i think i discoverd food around then.hahah)i still remeber listneing to my fist metal song I belive it was slipknot in 6th grade.From there on i just been listening to rock,heavy metal,metal,punk,metalcore everything but HXC Im sorry i just cant get into that at all. Some where in the 7th grade I listen to my first ICP song, and never stop buying albums and listning to psycopathic and i never will ( the era of Warlokxz was born) (i just never noticed it)but my fist love was metal and its never goona stop.IN 9th grade I met my best friend Ryan . i dont know what happen all these years and how it went by so fast but know im single and im looking for someone, but everyone that i meet that i think i like i lose the feelings as soon as we start talking. its been like this for a year now. Ever since i was little a had a dream of becoming a wrestler with my cousin and since my 16th party we havent talk ever since. We use to be like brothers not cousins i never considerd him my cousin. He was my brother and when we hit 16 just something happened. That really sucks someone you grow up with your whole life seen him and chilled with him at 3 days a week just dissapears.That fucking blows.well Sopohmore year was the best year in high school so far and junior year just blows. but hey who cares about me. this Year is the starting of a new slate ,i mean last summer was great.Last year my boy ANDREW aka Patchez had a kid a baby girl named Madison. I love that baby and hes been going out with kendra i belive almost 2-3 years and my best friend Ryan has had a relateshinship with Ashlee for like 10 months now its just seems like everyones in a relateshinship but me. This sucks. Damn i've been talking alot well i got a new screenname called just Warlokxz@aol.com so hit me up if any one wants . lol . well i gotta bounce. Peace
Warlokxz aka Mark j Souza Jr

Shit i didnt do anything to day, like whats so ever, i just woke up like a hour ago.Thats like the only thing I do is sleep. I just fucking kicked my dads ass in a volleyball game for xbox he said 1 buck a game i killed him like 20 times.lol shit im good.You know what the fuck i woke up to,....... my mom complaining to me how i dont got a job.What the fuck i keep telling her, NO ones hireing a green haired spell caster who is fatt. Fuck. she dont listen.I tried alot of places for a job but no ones hiring untill the end of summer.Fuck im so fucking worthless. Right.I guess so, but i dont give a fuck.shit its to fucking early.I cant go to sleep,fuck.well imma go and just fucking probaly call my boy Majical Majisto and see if i can crash there tonight, If not ill most likely wright again.MMFCL peace